Nobody's Feelings

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own kingdom hearts or any of it's characters! And sorry, short chapter! *runs away before I can get hit with anything* Anyway, here is the next chapter!

The First to Fall

Illya opened her eyes to see Riku laying there calmly, still afraid of what might happen she stood up and walked away. She glanced around the empty white hall, something caught her attention at the end of the hall. She then noticed that it was another order member, but something they did caught her off guard. "Nia?! What are you doing up at this hour and down here?!" Surprised by this she tossed at the cloaked figure, "What do you mean by that? My name's not Nia, it's Illya. Who are you anyway?"

Shaking his head the cloaked figure tossed back at her, "Why are you saying your name's Illya? What how could you forget Nia, it's me Roxas." The person then pulled down their hood and their stood...Sora! No, they had spiky blond hair, and bright electric blue eyes. She shook her head thinking about this statement, looking at the teen she walked up a little closer. Stopping she summoned her keyblade looking at Roxas, she then watched as Roxas began to walk away.

Chasing after him she was trying to figure out what he meant by that, she chased him up to the next floor looking at him she asked, "What do you mean by that?!" Roxas shook his head and summoned his duet, snarling at the other keybearer Roxas then calmed down. Walking over to her Roxas looked her up and down, looking her in the eye he said, "You do know you're a pretty thing, or has Riku never told you this?"

~- Upper Level -~

Nia looked around at the members she saw that it was time to 'test' Sora again, one of the members was about to go looking at him. "May I test Sora?" Vexen nodded tossing her a card, she shook her head and said, "Now don't tell me that I don't listen to my elders, I may not look like I am but I am." She summoned a portal and walked through it, looking around her eyes landed on Sora.

"Hello Sora," she said, looking around for the one who had said this he saw Nia. "Illya?! What are you doing here?! How's Riku, how did you two get out of the Realm of Darkness?!" Confused she shook her head, looking at him with those haunting emerald green pools. "Who's Illya and Riku? The name's Nia, you idiot!" She barked, looking at the stunned keybearer.

Sora shook it off looking at the young nobody Sora blurted, "What do you mean by that?!" She then looked up and then back at Sora, she was a really nice girl but she did slap any guy that had made a comment it and that said they would love to get to know her better. She then looked at Sora's keyblade he had in his hand, summoning it to her Nia looked at the keyblade.

"A very nice keyblade you have here, but I can't allow you to win." She then tossed the keyblade back to Sora, who caught it and fell backwards looking at her. "Why do you wear that outfit?" He questioned, shaking her head she glared at Sora. "You do not need to know why I wear this!" She snarled, hardly anything could match how she felt towards Sora.

~- Lower Level, Riku's point of view -~

Riku woke up to see that Illya wasn't anywhere to be seen, shocked he quickly jumped to his feet. Racing for the exit he found yet another white hall, looking around to see if maybe Illya was anywhere near by. His ocean-blue eyes landed on a teen with long silver hair and the same ocean-blue eyes. "What the?! What are you suppose to be?!" The teen smirked at him it was the same cold smirk he had given Sora.

The replica shook his head in distast and disgust, looking up at Riku he taunted, "What would you say, if you found out that Sora had kissed Illya? Come on, you know you love that dang chit! Why can't you just flat out tell her?!" Riku was shocked to hear this, looking at the replica with anger in his eyes. "Don't you dare ever call Illya a chit! She's not one!"

The replica smiled looking at him, the replica taunted once again, "Fine, but what about that piece on Sora kissing her? Surprise? I guess you would be." Riku remained quiet glaring at the replica, the replica shook his head and contiuned, "I bet it's not every day you meet your twin! Too shocked to speak? This should come as a relief, then: I'm a replica of you that Vexen made."

Riku was able to find his voice, looking at the replica he whispered, "You mean a fake me?" The replica was taken back by this, looking at the real Riku he snapped, "I didn't say 'fake!' Just because your real doesn't mean that you're better then me, we share the same body and talents. But there is one way to tell us apart, though. Know what that is? Unlike you, I'm not afraid of anything!"

Snarling at the repilca Riku snarled, "Are you calling me a coward?!" The replica chuckled at this little snarl, he then looked up and then back at the real Riku. "You ARE a coward! You're afraid of the dark! The darkness inside of you scares you witless!" Riku snarled once again and began to reply but the replica cut him off, "But I'M different. I embrace the darkness do what ever I want! In other words..." The replica pulled out a sword exactly like Riku's, taken back by this Riku saw the smirk. "I'm can wipe the floor with you!"

~- Up a floor -~

Looking at Roxas she snarled, "Shut up! I don't want to hear you talk!" Just then a portal showed up behind Roxas, walking through it she blinked confused how he was able to do that. "Hello Illya, do you know why you had that dream?" A voice asked from behind, spinning around her eyes landed on a girl with a grey dress on. "Who the heck are you?!" She spat.

She then found herself being pinned up against the door, she then heard Riku's voice on the other side of the door. "Yes you little wench, you pitful boyfriend is on the other side." The replica hissed, struggling to get lose from her grasp. "Little me go you witch!" She sneered, the replica let out a screech. She was then sent flying through the door, crashing into the hall she slid back a few more feet she then hit the wall.

Snarling she got back up to her feet, she then turned her cold fire eyes to the repilcas. "Let's kick their butts!" The replica of her chuckled at this statement, she then got to her feet and tossed the replica a glare that meant she was so done for! She then smirked as Riku just tossed her a smiled that was saying sure, it was a few mintues after that they defeated their replicas.

"Hey FAKE, I thought you were gonna wipe the floor with me!" Riku tossed, the replicas told them that this wasn't the end. And that they would get rid of them later, she let a laugh out and at the same time as Riku tossed, "Sorry, you missed your chance! I'm finishing you first, right here!" They went to do it but was soon tossed back by the power of their replicas.

They watched as their replicas fled from them, chasing after them they came across Ansem. Ansem gave him new cards and the two of them headed off to the next floor, Illya couldn't forget what was said to her from that kid named Roxas. Why did he seem familier to her? Had she seen him before? Why did he look like Sora? And why did he call her Nia?

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We listened to the talk,
But something wasn't right,
Looking around trying to find the answer,
I don't get it why can't you hear that voice?

You had a concerned look,
In your eyes yesterday,
Only if you knew why I screamed,
But you wouldn't understand it.

Hiding the fear from you,
I don't want you to worry,
But you seem to be able,
To see through the act.

Hiding the truth from you,
You want to know the truth,
I can see it in your eyes,
But you can't handle the dream.

[Shadowysights]

Good chap, things are getting a little loose here...

[Haku]

I really liked this chapter everything seems to be falling in place right where they need to.

[Skitty Cat]

Thanks for the comments, anyway, in the next chapter Riku might find out something!

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of it's characters. And this is going to be a short chapter. Okay, please let me know if you like it this size or if you think it should be returned to the way it was.

Hearts of Twilight

Illya glanced around trying to think if she should tell Riku or not about the dream she had, she didn't know why but she had a feeling that there was something bothering Riku. "Riku, are you okay?" She noticed that he stopped in his tracks, they were at Alantica now. "Yes, I'm just fine Illya." But she knew he was lying. "You're lying to me Riku!"

Riku stopped dead in his tracks, looking at her to see that sad look in her eyes. "I'm fine I swear it." Seeing the look of anger flashing across her face, he pulled her close to him. Looking up at Riku to see those ocean blue eyes, she murmured, "You're still lying to me." She smiled as Riku let out a chuckle, she was a little disappointed when he let her go.

"You're right, I just want to know what's troubling you." Riku replied, she flushed at these words. "Riku, do you love me?" She asked weakly. She watched him give a nod in approval, she tensed up at that reply. "I can't stay near you then." She murmured to herself, she ran off knowing that she couldn't hurt him now! "I can't hurt you, I just can't do it!"

~- Upper Level -~

Nia glanced around the room, she then noticed Vexen was coming over. "So, Nia, how did you like your battle with Sora?" She just remembered Axel had asked her this, looking at him she replied angrily, "Why was he calling me Illya?! I need my questions answered! Other then the unanswered questions, I enjoyed it!" She then stormed out of the room, stopping when she saw the Riku replica.

She spun around to look at Vexen and spat, "What's this Vexen?!" Vexen looked at the young nobody, he enjoyed seeing her enraged. "Temper, temper young keybearer." She then noticed the feminine one in a shadowy corner. "Who's this Vexen?" The girl asked. She sounded so much...like herself!

"Vexen!" Larxene snarled, she agreed with Larxene by her body language. Vexen was not to be trusted, she waited a reply from Vexen. "Humbled by someone of such limit significance. You shame yourself and the oraganzation."

She was about to leave when the Riku replica grabbed her wrist. "Hello, name's Riku." She made a noise in between a snarl and a laugh. "Yeah right! I've met up with the real Riku!" She listened as the older three nobodies began fighting with each other, she finally lost her temper and snapped, "Shut up already! Can't you three not try to kill each other for one day?!"

~- Floor seven, Riku's point of view -~

Riku stared at Illya he was beginning to wonder if she was okay, something seemed to be bothering her. "Why has she suddenly grown distant with me? Did I do something wrong to make her mad?" He thought, Illya did seem very distant with him. It was as if she was afraid he might do something to her, or the other way around. "I don't get it, why is she acting this way?" He asked himself.

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Hearts that are different,
They can use light and dark,
Hearts of twilight is one of the keys,
But why must he be one of them?

Hearts joining together as one,
I wish I knew what this meant,
How are two hearts suppose,
To join as one?

I know that we have to,
Get through this thing,
But what's going on with us?
Drifting apart we are now,

I know that you are wondering,
Why have I become so distant,
But your my weakness I need you,
Hiding the tears in the rain.

[Shadowysights]

Extremly short chapter...honestly, it seems something big is about to happen, events keep leading on gettiing worse and worse.

[Skitty Cat]

Thanks, I know that was a short chapter...and who knows something bad might happen.

[Skitty Cat]

Illya: Man, Kari I'm going to hurt you after this chapter!
Me: Meep! Come on Illya chill out!
Illya: Shut up!
Riku: Just shut up, and get a move on with the chapter!

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Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of it's characters, hehe and man feel sorry for Illya, and there might be a little bit of langauage don't know.

Facing the truth

Illya took in a breath, looking over to Riku she knew that she had to tell him now. She grabbed his wrist stopping him in his tracks, looking at her with confused eyes. "What is it Illya?" She frowned a little, she then let out a sigh and murmured, "I need to tell you something." Following her as they headed for the exit of this floor, she stopped when they reached the exit.

"What is it then Illya?" She spun around and gave Riku a hug, pulling away from him she murmured, "I really need to tell you about that dream." Looking at the stunned look on Riku's face, she shrugged her shoulders. "Riku, I had this one dream, you and Sora were crazy...you guys attacked me." She broke off there, she couldn't bring herself to tell Riku that she had killed them in the dream.

But as if guessing the last piece, he smiled at her in a brotherly fashion. "It's okay Illya, I know you would never do anything like that." She smiled feeling the safety of Riku being near, she buried her face in his chest. "Riku, I..." There was a reason to her major mood swings, Riku who caught on to what she was saying laughed.

"I brought some dark clothes," he whispered, pulling the dark garment out of a bag. Smiling at Riku she murmured her thanks, grabbing it she fled from him to change her clothes. Coming back she now wore black jeans with a chain that was on her right hip, she wore a dark blue tank-top that was off the shoulder on one side. "Thanks, you always did carry these." She murmured.

Smiling at the timid keybearer, Riku pulled her into a soft but yet firm embrace. "Illya, is there something else you wished to tell me?" She shook her head no, lying to him she thought, "I want to tell you that I love you, but I just can't do it." She smiled sweetly at him, the two then headed through to the next hall way.

They headed straight for the next floor remaining quiet, she longed to tell him that she loved him. But another wave of sadness hit hard, she brushed it away following him not saying anything. "Illya, I understand why you were having those mood swings. Is there anything you want to tell me?" Not meaning to she lost her temper, walking up to Riku she slapped him on the cheek.

~- Upper Level -~

Nia gazed around the room staring at the Riku replica, she didn't know why but she had the sudden urge to slap him. He was to cocky for her taste, shaking her head in a nagitive fashion at the replica she murmured, "We must wait." She looked up at Axel, she noticed that his gaze has been watching her, she waited for him to say something that would give her some sort of clue. "Music of the night." She murmured to herself.

She shook her head walking away from the group, she glanced around feeling someone watching her. "Who's there?!" She asked angrily, looking around she saw that it was only Demyx who now had a confused look on his face. "Easy there Nia," he whispered. She smiled at him, waiting for him to say something else to her. "Yeah, Meyx, what would you like?" She asked happily.

She felt Demyx pick her up once more, not even fighting him this time like the first time. They walked through the portal, glancing around to see where they were now. "Meyx, thanks." She whispered, looking around she saw that they were at Halloween Town. Humming the tone she danced around, looking at Demyx or as she called him Meyx.

~- Lower Floor of Castle Oblivion! -~

Illya fled from Riku she couldn't understand why she did it, she stopped after she reached the room outside of the story room. "What's up with you?" She asked herself, not understanding why she had slapped Riku. Glancing around she hoped Riku would understand, she felt a wave of anger hit her. "Man, what is it with me damnit?!" She screamed, Riku walked quietly into the room.

Looking at him, she whispered, "Riku, I didn't mean to slap you, I just lost my temper..." Riku smiled at her, walking over he whispered gently, "It's okay to get mad." She smiled for him understanding, he pulled her into a hug looking down into those grey tinted violet pools. "I love you, Riku," she whispered.

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Remembering the past,
I don't understand this,
How did we fall apart so fast?
I remember before, we were so close.

But now we have fallen apart,
I don't understand this,
Why in the world are we fighting?
We use to be closer then anyone else.

Tears of pain falling tonight,
I can't slow them down,
I won't even try to slow them,
You use to be mine, but you found another.

We use to laugh, cry and talk,
But now it's just a friendly smile,
We don't even try touching,
The other one's hand, what happened?

Being in this current state,
I don't know if my heart can mend,
Tears falling that is true, where did we go wrong?
You use to be mine, but now you are another girl's man.

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Me: Man, what have I've done?
Riku: Easy, you're making our friendship fall apart!
Me: But I fixed it!
Riku and Illya: Just a little bit!
*gets hit in the head*
Me: Oww, the next chapter might take a little while!

[~Lenya~]

O__OWow,this is a pretty good fanfic,although at first shes pretty much the same as Kairi.:p And Riku might've finally gotten someone!Yaayy!!^__^ I give a 9/10!

[Skitty Cat]

Thanks, yeah I kinda did it that way. :) Thank you for the review. *bows*

[Shi-Seventh Kira]

Yo!!!

You write!!!!!!!! You didn't tell me!!!!! Anyway, you're great. I love Illya. I am just waiting for the Riku x Illya moment.....There...is going...to be one....right?
Keep up the good work!!!!!!!!

[Skitty Cat]

Yes there is! And there's going to be a good one later! But nothing to bad, yeah I'm writing. :)

[Shadowysights]

Wow, this is getting more and more interesting. Keep it up!

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own kingdom hearts or any of it's characters! I don't know why much Nia and Demyx are going to show up in this chapter.

Dream On

Illya smiled a little as she listened to Riku, she felt safe in his arms. She closed her eyes listening to Riku talk, he was trying to run some ideas past her. She felt happier then she had in a long time, seeing the color around Riku go back to dark blue showing that he was relaxed. Riku, sorry that I slapped you. She thought sorrowfully, looking up to see if he took it or not, seeing the comferting smile on his face. "I understand Illya." She smiled that was just like Riku, he was able to understand this problem.

She shook her head though: why was he able to understand so easily? Confusion clearly gripping her heart, the color changed to that of grey. "Hey Illya, do you only just have change of heart?" She looked up at him, she didn't dare speak to him. Walking away she needed some time to relax, she swore beneath her breath. "I don't get it! I'm tired of pretending I don't love him!" She snarled to herself.

Walking away she murmured softly, "I guess I need to run, to see if he'll follow me." She didn't know why but it felt as if their friendship was drifting apart. She looked over to him and smiled softly, she felt as if she needed to leave his side. She heard one of Tim McGraw's songs on her mp3 player, frowning she looked at Riku she wanted to tell him that she didn't know what to do.

"So, you have a crush on me huh?" She smiled at him weakly spinning around she walked over to him, she was so hard headed as Riku told her smiling a little she pushed Riku's shoulder. Looking up at him she remained silent, she didn't know what she should say it felt as if they were drifting farther apart. She then began to wonder if their relastionship was meant to be, shaking her head no she walked away from him feeling a wave of loniness hit her harder then ever.

I can't take this pain, why must I play this masquerade? I don't understand it, why am I always feeling empty around them? She railed silently, walking away from Riku she galnced over her shoulder, looking at him she asked, "You coming?"

~- Halloween Town -~

Nia looked at Demyx happiness shinning in her eyes, she danced around but stopped when she heard Demyx laugh. She watched as he walked up to her, confusion in her eyes she stared up at him wondering why he had that smirk on his face. "Meyx, what's up with that smirk on your face?" She asked. Looking at him as he moved a stray strand of hair out of her eyes, he smiled at her but that smirk soon returned to his lips.

"Come on Nia, you and me both know that you can't catch me." He whispered, growling she snapped, "Is that so? Let's find out shall we!" The two then broke into a run not wanting to lose this race, she smiled thinking about her first day in the order. Looking at Demyx quickly she thanked him silently, he told the other members to back off and stop being mean to her, he got hurt for it but he was okay.

~- Lower Level, Riku's point of view -~

Riku watched as Illya seemed really up tight confused on why, he watched as she walked around the room walking up behind her. "Illya, what's the matter?" He whispered gently, they walked out into the next hallway. He noticed that Illya wasn't talking to him, he looked at her with worried eyes wondering why she was acting like this.

What's happened to you Illya? You've changed from after we left the islands, you're not that same sweet girl I use to know. What's changed in you? Maybe it's just me, but you seem so different. I wish I knew what has changed you. You're not that soft spoken, timid teen I use to know. Sure, you still don't talk but you're fighting more now.

But then again, I don't know why you've changed all so suddenly. You never when tried smacking me before now, but I guess you would have grown up sooner or later. A smirk came to his lips as those thoughts ran over and over again in his head, it was true she wasn't at all like how she was on the islands. Riku walked with her trying to clear his head, the two of them were this close yet so apart.

Riku smiled at her causing a confused look to come to her eyes, shaking his head he continued walking he couldn't let her know anything right now. "I'll tell her later about those promises," he whispered to himself. He watched as Illya caught up with him looking at her, a soft smile came to his lips but he couldn't help but wonder about her past.

At first I saw her and Kairi as pains, but now they're two of my best friends. Illya, she's more then just a friend, she's something like a sister to me...no, she's more then that. He looked at her worried about how she was feeling, they hadn't spoken to each other since before they left the last floor. They were now on the next floor, something didn't feel right in between the two of them.

"Illya, what's the matter?" He got the same reply as eailier she didn't say anything, walking over to Illya he grabbed her wrist. "Let me go," she whispered weakly. Riku was confused: why was she acting this way? He knew that one time wasn't helping, he didn't want to lose his temper with her but something didn't seem to be right.

Come on girl, talk to me please. I don't get it, why are you acting so distant? I don't get it, why are we drifting apart as fast as we are. He wasn't going to lose her, pulling her into his embrace he looked into her eyes. "Illya, I don't want to lose your friendship." He whispered, not giving her time to reply he gave her a kiss.

Stunning her, looking up at him with those grey tinted violet pools she was shocked. Pushing him away Illya whispered, "Riku, what are you saying?" He smiled at her looking past the blindfold into the soft eyes of her's, he shook his head looking up at the ceiling and then back at her. "I love you," taken back by this Illya looked up at him.

Though a thousand words, have never been spoken,
They'll fly to you,
Crossing over the time and distance holding you,
Suspended on silver wings.

And a thousand words,
One thousand confessions,
Will cradle you,
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away,
They'll hold you forever. She sang softly, looking at Riku she smiled sweetly at him. He smiled at her he didn't like it when they weren't talking. "Are you feeling better?" He asked softly, she nodded her head. Smiling the two began heading to the story room, when they were outside of it he murmured, "Soon Illya."

He watched as Illya danced a little around the room, he heard a soft melody going around the room. "Dream on, I'll be here to light you're way. Dream on, I protect you Illya...I promise." He noticed that Illya stopped and was staring at him, confused he looked at her. "What is it Illya?" Smiling softly he had to listen hard to what she muttered, "Riku, do you ever think about the future?" Confused on why she asked this, he thought for a moment. "Why do you ask?"

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Holding back the pain,
Scars of the past reopening,
The fights don't truly help,
Leading yourself and others to believe.

Hiding the hurt inside,
Wanting to scream out,
Wanting to just fall apart,
Hiding inside as the world moves on.

Falling apart in the shadows,
Away from the eyes of you,
I don't know what to do,
Falling apart in front of you.

Is that to much to ask?
I don't want to be cold,
I just want you to see,
That I can feel just like you.

Leading you guys into a masquerade,
Making you think that I'm just fine,
Sometimes I wonder if my emotions,
Have been stolen from me.

Wanting a different life,
I don't know where to turn,
Hurting badly now after bitter words,
I want to break out of this masquerade.

[Shi-Seventh Kira]

Very good chapter.

There were a couple of grammar mistakes, but overall, WOW. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! Riku confessed. (O.K. breath) I can sense fluff coming on!!!!!!!!! Update soon, but at your own convenience ( I so spelled that wrong!)