Nobody's Feelings

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of it's character, all I own is the plot, ocs and the poems at the end of the chapters.

Awakening

Illya walked up and down the halls of the castle, Riku said he would be back a little later this is what hurt her. She walked pass a hall that she has more then five times now, she lifted her hand up to her head feeling dizzy unsure why her vision became fuzzy. She suddenly fell to the floor, looking around to see that she wasn't in the castle anymore. She looked down at to see she was standing on a platform, she looked at the picture to see that it was Sora.

Her eyes lost their glow, she frowned when she saw him. "Who are his friends? Is it Riku, Kairi and me. Or is it those other two?" She thought sourly. Looking around the area her thoughts went all over the place, lifting her head up to the sound of a voice. "Illya, so which one will you chose?" A voice asked, three stone platforms showed up, one had a rod, another a shield, and the last one had a sword on it.

Looking at them she walked up to the rod, holding it she read what it had on it, she then looked up waiting for the voice to say something. "I'll take the rod." She whispered, the rod disappeared and a keyblade showed up. The platform began to shake, it then shattered into a thousand pieces she then landed on the next platform. This one had Kairi on it, looking around her eyes landed on a heartless.

Summoning her keyblade she attcked the heartless that had risen up form the ground, the voice then showed up again. "Good job Illya, now on to the next platform." She was surrounded by the light, falling down to the next platform she looked down to see a girl in the shadows. Looking around she asked, "Now what?"

"You must tell me a few things about yourself." The voice replied, she looked around to see three people she doesn't know...but it feels like she knows them. "What do you hold close to you?" Growling she snapped back at the person, "My friends, and why should I even tell you!" The first person disappeared, she then looked to the next one figuring out that they were not really. "What do you want most out of life?"

She thought about this question, looking at the second person she replied, "For the ones I care about to be happy." The second person disappeared, looking over to the third person. "How far would you go to safe Riku?" She already knew the answer, she let out a sigh and replied softly, "As far as I must, I don't care what happens to me as long as he is okay."

She was then teleported to the next platform, looking down to see her parents she then saw some light. Walking over to it she heard a noise, spinning around to see some stairs leading up to the next platform. Dashing up them she saw that the last one was her and Riku, she was a little bit shocked but pushed it away form her. "The stronger your heart becomes the more you can help your friends, don't turn to the darkness to make it stonger."

Spinning around she saw a girl standing there, she had red hair her eyes were amber color a smirk came to the girl's lips. "My my Illya, only if you knew something." The red-headed teen growled, she glared at the creature snapping she asked, "Who are you and how do you know my name?!" The teen laughed at this question, but her laugh was hallow. It was as if she wasn't really, just like her the teen had a glow to her amber eyes. "My name's not your problem, but as to how I know your name...is 'cause I am you Illya."

The raven-haired teen growled at this, sending herself flying towards the red-headed teen. "You little...!" The red-headed girl started, but was cut off when Illya hit her with her keyblade. "You are not me! I'm me, no one else is me got that!" She snarled, the red head smirked at this, looking at Illya she summoned her blade. "Fine, but let's fight." The red head snarled, the two teens then began their sword fight. After the battle was done she found herself back in the castle, looking around her eyes landed on Riku. "Riku, how did I get here?" Riku smiled and walked over to her, she was laing on her bed but was now sitting up in it. "I brought you here."

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Follow your heart,
I don't understand.
What does this mean,
should I follow my heart?
I don't know anymore,
friends, family, love ones.
It seems as if they are leaving me,
to take care of my problems by myself.
I just don't understand.
Don't laugh at me,
don't call me names.
Don't get your pleasure,
form my pain.
I wish I knew what I should do.

[Lycanthrope]

Very good poetry. Keep it up.

[Skitty Cat]

Okay, and I just remembered the rating for this which I forgot for the first chapter...it's T for teen.

[princess namine]

I got confused with the last chapters because it went from one place to another.

[Skitty Cat]

Sorry about that Nami, if this helped at all let me know. Illa was walking through the halls, but she suddenly felt dizzy so when she fell to the floor she ended up going through her awakening. And when she woke up, she was back in the castle.

[princess namine]

Yeah that makes more sense thank you.

[Eternal Dream]

Loved it, Kitty. Can't wait for the update.

~ Dream

[princess namine]

Yeah when's the next chapter up? I'm putting the next chapter of mine up today.

[Skitty Cat]

Promises

Illya walked around spinning around to see Riku standing there, she smiled weakly but she has lost that glow to her eyes. Her heart was sharttered into a thousand pieces, Riku had began to lose himself to the darkness. She turned away form Riku and then began walking away form him, after she put some space between them she looked back at him, she then began walking away form him whispering softly, "I can't believe you just broke your promise Riku...you promised that you wouldn't join up with the darkness, and look at what you just did. Please please, don't lose yourself to it what ever you do just don't lose yourself to her grip."

Flashback: She looked at Riku after she had told him about her dream, Riku let out a sigh looking at the floor looking back up at her he whispered, "I promise I won't let that happen, I will do what ever I have to." Riku then left her room she stared up at her ceiling, wondering if Riku could ever do that shaking her head she whispered to herself, "No, you will be needing help with that Riku...but I think that you might want to keep and full fill that promise by yourself." She closed her eyes and fell asleep it was the next day and those two were on the island, looking at him she mumered, "Riku, you remember the promise you made me yesterday?"

Riku nodded and looked into her grey-violet eyes, wondering what she wanted to tell him. "Well, I don't know if you would like help keeping the promise or what...but if you would like any I won't mind helping you." She waited for Riku to reply to what she had said, looking over to him she saw that confused look. "I don't want you to get hurt, I made you that promise...I can keep it myself."

She watched as Riku walked away she let out a soft sigh, looking out at the water she muttered to herself, "I'm a foul to think that me and Riku have a chance together, HE LOVES KAIRI!" She got up and followed Riku back home, once when they reached home she lead down in her bed her thoughts running free.

It was the next day before Riku came to get her, so that way they could go to the island. "He loves Kairi, I know it...but he also knows that Sora loves Kairi. Why can't I tell him that I love him? Why do I keep it hidden, maybe if I chose a song that would tell him that I love him...I was never good if words." She thought, she got up and walked over to her desk.

Sitting down she began writing some words down, she heard Riku calling for her and put the piece of paper in her bag. She and Riku then headed for the docks to get to the island, her thoughts were racing around trying to figure out the next piece to the song.

Flashback ends: She looked at Riku and then let out a sigh, she waited for him to bring up the next world. "So, now where are you going?" She muttered, Riku shook his head and walked up to her smiling he wrapped his arms around her. "You mean where are we going next, and that is Agrabah little kitty."

Smiling the two walked through a portal she had made, reaching the world she took off her shoes. "Ilyla, put your shoes back on right now!" Riku knew the reply he would get form the hot tempered teen. "No, you know me Riku! Unless I have to wear shoes I don't!" She raced through the streets but stopped when she saw Sora and his gang.

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I know that destiny is a chose,
but you seem to not care anymore.
What happened to you,
what has changed?
I don't know anymore,
you seem to be willing to go to any length to get something.
I don't want to let you go,
so please don't make me.
I can't find your heart,
it's being taken over.
I don't want to set you free,
you know that you don't want this.
Why are you doing this if you don't want to?
I can tell by the look in your eyes,
you don't want to do this.
So why are you doing it then?

[princess namine]

Awsome as always. Can't wait for the next chapter.

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: You guys know the disclaimer by now! And this chappy has a bit of language at the end...and that is one of the reasons it's RATED T FOR TEEN! Okay, I hope you like this; the peom at the end is pretty much form Riku's and Illya's pov if they didn't have each other.

Stand

They watched as Sora and his gang walk into a cave, following them they waited until Sora and his group went into a hole. Walking up behind Jasmine she placed her hand on Jasmine's shoulder, she looked back at Riku and her Jasmine had a look of fear on her face. Illya glanced back at Riku smiling, she stepped aside as Riku took Jasmine through a portal; following him through the portal she muttered, "Riku, why must we do this?"

After they reached Hallow Bastion she watched as Riku walked away form her, she didn't understand why did Riku have to lose himself? She followed Riku as he walked back to the gummi ship, she knew this would happen looking around the castle she began to wonder what Ansem meant by Princess; she watched as Riku was about to get in she walked up to him.

"Riku, no way are you leaving me behind again. I don't like that! So, we now need Belle and Snow White; and then the last two Princess of Heart that we don't know 'bout." Riku smiled and held out his hand for her to take it, knowing that she wasn't one to give up easily; smiling he helped her into the ship.

Riku had her in his arms, looking up at him she muttered, "It doesn't matter what we go through, as long as we stand together we can do anything." Riku looked at her in the eye and gave her a nod in reply, he put her down in the driver's seat; he then took his seat and looked at her.

"Beast's Castle, is our next stop...but how would you feel 'bout going to Halloween Town little kitty?" Smiling she started up the gummi ship and drove off, landing on Halloween Town they looked at their outfits; Riku's outfit was that of a dark blue T-shirt and blue pants, he had sharp teeth with black wings on his back.

While Illya's was that of a soft grown, a gold upper arm bracelet was on her left arm; while her right arm didn't have anything. Her shoes weren't there anymore, looking over to Riku she then looked around and saw Sora, muttering softly, "Great, Sora's here...can't he stay out our way for once damn it."

Riku right then started to figure out, that this is more then just a big brother little sister thing; that he is falling in love with her Riku saw the smile that was on her lips, smiling as well he pulled her close to him.

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You think you know her,
But you don't know her.
She cries at night and day in her heart,
And you don't know it.
She dream's of other worlds,
You don't know it but soon.
She will soon leave earth,
And you don't know it.
To another world she will go,
And you won't know it.
She loves you with all her heart,
And you don't know it.
She wants to tell you how she feels,
But you won't find out until it's to late.
She wanted to tell him that her heart was broken,
But he won't know it.
All she said is that you don't know me,
And then she said goodbye.
And then he said you are right I don't,
But I need you.
He read the letter she left behind,
At the bottom it said I love you goodbye.
Why did you have to leave me behind?
Is it because I don't know her?
Yes it is because I don't know her,
I don't know if I can go on with out her.
No I can't go on with out her,
He know that for sure but she is gone now.
Why didn't I tell her how I feel about her?
That he needs her he wants her to come back,
But she's gone forever;
He guess he can rest now.

[princess namine]

Awsome again, the poems are always great.

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of it's characters nor the song "Travelin' Soul" that song belongs to Terri Clark. The lyrics that are used in here, those belongs to me; unless someone else wrote this...and please forgive me for the lyrics, it's the piece to the song Illya's working on; I need to figure out the rest of it myself. So hands off the lyrics, and the poems at the bottom; if you would like to use Illya ask me first and I will think 'bout it. And man, this is going to be a short chapter, anyway here is the next chapter. There's are some parts that I decided not to put up for this poem.

Travelin' Soul

Illya and Riku followed Sora for a while, but soon headed back to the gummi ship; heading off to Beast's Castle. "I can't believe Sora! How can he forget 'bout his childhood friends?! I just don't understand!" She was really angry with Sora, looking back at Riku for a moment she muttered, "Why do you think Sora did pick up new friends and leave us in the past?"

Riku only shrugged looking into those grey-violet eyes, frowning when he was this he muttered softly, "I don't know Illya." Shaking her head she looked back out of the window, she currently had the ship on auto pilot; Riku knowing that as soon as you got her mad she wasn't one to calm down easily.

Looking at the young teen, Riku smirked she was a cute little kitty as he called her; looking at him in the rear view mirror she asked, "What is it now Riku?" Riku shook his head, she smiled at him and he returned the smile. "Nothing much little kitty, just that we are almost to Beast's Castle." She then found herself humming to a song, Riku smiled knowing that soon she would begin singing soon.

"I know that destiny is a choose, but what happens if we don't want to follow the path that is meant for us? We know that the heart can lead us home, but what happens if we lose are way; I know that I can't hide who I truly am and how I truly feel for all of my life. I know that I can love you in secret, but that will never answer my question if you love me to? I don't know how I should feel, but I know that if I listen to my heart I'll find the answer.

I know that my heart want you, but does your heart want me? It doesn't matter as long as I have you, nothing can change how I feel for you. I wish you know how I felt, but you will never know the truth 'bout how I feel towards you. You will never know the truth 'bout how I feel towards you, maybe one day you might; but until then you will never know the truth 'bout how I feel towards you."

Riku looked at her confusion was in his eyes, where did she hear that song? "Illya, where did you hear that song?" Smiling weakly she looked at him, they then landed on the world they needed. "I wrote it myself, why Riku?" Riku shook his head and the two headed into the castle, the song was lovely but you was the other person she was singing about? Who did she love? Or was the song for Kairi and Sora? No, it was in between her and her love one, but who is the one she loves?

She followed Riku, seeing that worried look in his eyes. "What's the..." She was cut off to the sound of a roar, looking around the area her eyes landed on a man; he wasn't really a man more like a beast, a woman then showed up behind him. "Who are you two?! Answer me right now!" Her eyes landed on the woman behind him, she looked over to Riku and then at the lady.

"Her, she is the reason we are here; so if you would be just kind enough to hand her over. And as for are names, you don't need to know them." The man attacked, Riku sent himself flying towards him; leaving her to get Belle walking up to her she smirked. Opening a portal she pushed the girl through, glancing over her shoulder she tossed to Riku. "Now, time for the last two. I wonder who they are?"

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They say things that hurt her.
She doesn't show it,
She's hurt on the inside.
She is calling out to them,
But they won't answer her calls.
They fight like every day,
She is hurt from the fights.
She wish that for one day they could go with out fighting,
But she knows that's nothing but a dream.
Why can't she tell them how she feels?
She thinks they won't listen,
There is one she could tell but she doesn't do it.
Because she is afraid that one person in her family would push her away.
So she just stays quiet thinking about other things like where she belongs?
She sometimes wonders what is out there but she knows that she has to wait.
Why can't they understand her pain?
If they would look in to her eyes they would see how she feels.
Why don't they ask if anything is wrong with her?
Don't they see that she's afraid of being hurt?
Why can't they see what hurts her the most?
Why can't they understand her?

[princess namine]

So does Riku know the next princesses are Kairi and Illa?

[Skitty Cat]

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts or any of it's characters, nor the song "1000 Words" the song belongs to Jade Sweetbox, if I did own Kingdom Hearts Riku and Roxas would be MINE! No Riku doesn't know yet Nami, but in this chapter he finds out! And time is coming closer for Illya to lose her sight, man I hate doing this to pour Riku-kun. And please play "1000 Words" Here is a link: http://youtube.com/watch?v=sqWXSKa79ok and this chapter isn't only form Illya's point of view, but form another girl's point of view...but thing is who is this girl? And also might be form Riku's point of veiw, and here is Illya in her dark mode: , remember her eyes are grey-violet and her hair is raven-black.

A Thousand Words

Illya and Riku reached the castle once more, she smiled as Riku walked up and down; he was extermely cute when he did that. "Riku, what are you thinking about?" She murmured, she waited for Riku's reply; looking at the young keybearer he replied, "I just can't figure out who the last two we need are, be right back promise."

Riku then dashed away form her, frowning she looked around; Riku came back to long after that. They already went to Neverland and met Sora and his group there, and now they waited to hear what Maleficent would say next; she knew that something wasn't right.

She turned her head to the entarnce, getting up form the railing in which she was sitting on; she jumped down and looked at Riku. "Come on Riku, someone's here!" She and Riku then dashed out the door, the two saw Beast smirking Riku looked over to her.

Riku dogged Beast's attack and then countered, striking him she and Riku looked at Sora, who just arrived and his gang; Illya looked at Riku and then back to Sora and snarled, "So, Sora, you think you are the only one who can use the keyblade? Guess what, your wrong!" Summoning her keyblade, which was soft grey, the handle was blue; while the keychain was a heart that was half light and half dark.

Sora had a shocked look on his face, glaring at him she snapped, "Who are your friends Sora?! Have you forgotten all about Riku, Kairi and me?!" Her anger growing she waited for Sora's reply, it took him a minute to reply but sure enough he murmured, "You, Riku, Kairi, Donald, Goofy and everyone else who has help me are my friends Illya.

~Another World~

A cloaked figure stood in a battle field, you could tell by the people laying on the ground; spinning around to the sound of foot steps. She saw another hooded figure, she watched as they walked up to her; not having any memories of her true home world.

She was taken in by a man with flaming-red hair, the hooded person pulled their hood down; they had emerald green eyes, and flaming-red hair releaxing she waited to hear what he would say.

"What's up little lady? You have been having your hood up for some time now." The hooded girl shook her head, looking at the man she murmured, "Nothing Axel, I've just been doing what is need be to remember my home world; Xemnas said that if I did as he told me I'll get my memories back."

Axel looked away form the young teen, he then looked back at her; frowning he muttered, "I wish I could, if I could I would tell you in a heartbeat; but I can tell you one thing, there is more to you then meets the eye. You are with the 13th Order remember? I can't tell you the truth, those are my orders all that I can do is make sure that you are okay."

Frowning at this the hooded girl asked, "Why can't you tell me Axel? Why won't Xemnas let you tell me? Axel, please tell me the truth! I'm tried of these secrets that you members know and not me! What's so different about me?! Why can I use the keyblade?! Answer me please Axel!"

Axel pulled the girl into a hug, looking into his emerald green eyes she whispered, "Please, can't you at least tell me one thing other then 'There is more to you then meets the eye' please Axel," she waited for the flaming-red haired nobody to reply to her question.

~The Waterfalls~

Illya and Riku looked at Sora, holding out his hand Riku summoned the keyblade to him; smiling Riku looked at the keyblade. "Riku, we need to talk alone; it's about the last two princess of heart." Looking at her the two began to walk away, Donald and Goofy not to far behind them; Riku looked at her they were far enough ahead of Donald and Goofy it would be okay to talk about this.

"So, who are they?" She let out a sigh and looked ahead of her and murmured, "Kairi and..." Her voice trailed off afraid of what Riku would say, Riku looked at her for a moment confused on why she stopped; she took in breath and then let it out and contiued, "Me, Kairi and me are the last two Princess of Heart."

Riku stopped dead in his tracks looking at her, he murmured, "Really, I'm not taking you to that room then; but Kairi doesn't have her heart....do you know where it's at?" Shaking her head, the two walked into the enternce hall with Donald and Goofy not to far behind them; Riku was confused.

It didn't take long for Sora to enter, after he did he saw Illya and Riku in their dark modes; her outfit changed to a grey dress, a red ribbon was in her raven hair; her grey-violet eyes still had that glow to them. Her wings went to a pure white, she looked at Riku and then Sora; she was holding her keyblade which is called "Change of Heart"

Sora got his keyblade back, and then they began their battle; after it Riku and her were in their normal outfits. The two then dashed off, reaching a hall way Riku stopped and looked back at her; her keyblade had disappeared looking at the young teen he muttered, "You okay?"

~The World that Never Was~

The hooded girl and Axel walked around Dark City for some time now, looking at Axel who had just brought her back to here; seemed to be lost in thought reaching the castle. She looked at Axel again and whispered, "Please Axel, just tell me one thing 'bout my past; you were the one you found me after all."

Axel looked at the girl, she wouldn't take her hood off; smiling he lead her to his room. Shutting the door he began to tell her a few things, when Xigbar knocked on the door growling she snapped, "Xigbar, leave us alone!"

Axel opened the door and looked at her, and then back at Xigbar seeing the look on his face; he looked at the girl and muttered, "Go back to your room," he then added more quietly so that way only she could hear, "I'll talk to you later, promise."

~The Castle Hall, Riku's point of view~

He looked at Illya she had a cut on her left cheek, a few nicks on her arms looking in front of him; he stopped as a cloak figure came into view. The figure then began talking, giving in he whispered, "What do I have to do," not looking at Illya knowing that tears were in her eyes, he whispered softly, "I'm sorry Illya."

He then began to glow a green color, he knew that he just broke his promise to Illya. After that was done, Riku had lost himself to Ansem he looked around him; there was nothing but pitch black. "Illya, I'm sorry...I don't know if you can hear me; but I love you." He heard Illya fighting Ansem looking around, he saw that he was alone but then how could he be hearing what is going on?

~The Great Hall~

Illya looked up at Ansem, and cried, "I don't care what you have to say Ansem! I know Riku is in there!" Just then Sora and his gang showed up, a portal showed up not to far form her; looking at Ansem again he sent a ball of dark fire towards her. Sending her flying into the portal, landing on the other side she looked around; getting up on her feet she shouted, "Riku! Where are you?!"

Stumbling around for a little while, she soon heard Sora's voice again; she then looked around seeing Ansem. Knowing what was about to happen she looked around and began singing a song that she was hoping would reach Rku.

"I know that you're hiding things, using gentle words to shelter me. Your words were like a dream, but dreams could never fool me, not that easily. I acted so distant then, didn't say goodbye before you left. But I was listening, you'll fight your battles far from me, far too easily.

"Save your tears cause I'll come back" I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door, but still I swore; to hide the pain when I turn back the pages.

Shouting might have been the answer, what if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart? But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart, though a thousand words; have never been spoken. They'll fly to you, crossing over the time and distance holding you.

Suspended on silver wings, and a thousand words; one thousand confessions. Will cradle you, making all of the pain you feel seem far away. They'll hold you forever, the dream isn't over yet, though I often say I can't forget. I still relive that day, "You've been there with me all the way" I still hear you say.

"Wait for me I'll write you letters" I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor, but still I swore to hide the doubt. When I turn back the pages, anger might have been the answer. What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait, but now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late.

Cause a thousand words, call out through the ages; they'll fly to you. Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you, suspended on silver wings, oh a thousand words. One thousand embraces, will cradle you." She sang, hoping that someone would hear her.

"Tell me princess, how does it feel to have the Darkness around you? How does it feel not to have your friends around you? To know that this is all you are? Your a teen age girl that well always be alone! No one can talk to you without you feeling empty! Let's see how you feel about seeing your friends in the Light now!" A spell was sent flying towards her, she was pinned against a wall struggling she glared at Ansem.

"Leave me and my friends alone!" Ansem chuckled at this, lifting his hand up a person in a dark cloak showed up. "You may be Xemnas's other side but you can't order me around!" The hooded person snapped, another showed up looking at Asnem the was a smirk on his face.

"What do you want him to do?" The man asked, Ansem looked at the person and then at Illa still with that smirk on his face. "I want it where Illya can't stand to look at the light, where she needs a blindfold to keep her eyes form being hurt."

The hooded person smirked a little, she could barely see the smirk form under his hood. "She won't be able to get away? Then yes I shall do it." The hooded person looked at her, seeing that look that if looks could kill he would be dead. She could now see the smirk clearly, growling she snapped, "No! Get away form me! Leave me alone!"

The hooded person chuckled at this, Illya could barely hear a melody floating through the realm of Darkness. "But child, I can't let that happen...I have to do this I'm sorry." She struggled a little more, glaring at the three men, she snarled, "No, leave me alone." The hooded one pulled his hood down, his violet hair reminded Illya of someone some of his hair was covering one of his eyes.

"A spell upon you, that you will not be able to look upon the light without great pain and agony. You must shun the beauty of the sun lest you lose your sight; you must only see in the darkness of night and never see the faces of your loved ones in the light of day." The spell hit her she was then in a caslte, looking up to see the bright walls she quickly looked down at the ground and let out a scream of pain.

"It hurts so much, what am I suppose to do? Return to the Darkness, no if I do go back in I want someone to kill me." She whispered, she felt a hand on her shoulder looking to her left to see who it was. "Riku...I can't..." She whispered, she threw her arms around Riku crying softly. "I can't..."

Riku stroked her hair softly, looking at her through sad ocean blue-green eyes. "What can't you?" Frowning she looked at Riku and muttered, "I lost my sight, so do you by chance have a blindfold like cloth?" Riku handed her a piece of cloth and watched as she put it on, standing up she murmured, "Come on, let's get going."

~~~~~

She hides in the twilight,
never showing her true emotions.
She has lost her temper a few times,
but then again everyone does once in a while.
Never getting the answers she seeks,
she knows that sooner or later she'll get them.
But the question is,
when will she get the answers?
He trys to help her through,
but he knows that there is so much he can do.
She knows that she has to find the answers,
but will she like what she finds out?