Retelling of a dream, no, a nightmare.

[Ichi TK]

This is something that came to me last night. I'm not ashamed to say, this nightmare woke me up at 5AM and made me cry for a good 20 minutes. (The italic parts are the dream, btw)

Retelling of a nightmare
A young couple lie next to eachother after making love. The room is cold but they keep each other warm. A little while later, the girl tells the boy he can ask her any question about her past that he likes. She has had a lot of bad experiences in the past, very unpleasent ones. He asks to know about one that hurt her the most because he cares about her. They love each other very much. She tells him that the last boyfriend she had told this story to dumped her, because he thought it had 'tainted' her. The boy tells the girl nothing could ever make him love her any less. She tells him the story, which I shan't retell because it is very unpleasant. He hears the story, and love sher all the same. It wasn't her fault it happened. He gets the feeling she doesn't believe he's ok with it. She goes home later that night as normal and he does too.

The boy is on a bus heading to where the girl is waiting for him. On the train he meets a man. The man tells him he is going to kill the girl. Horrified, the boy does everything he can to stop him before they get there, but he can't do a thing. He knows this man can't be stopped. The boy sees the girl from the bus window, and tries to mouth the words 'I love you.' to her, but she does not see him.
"Will you make it painless?" the boy asks.
"Yes." The man replies.
"Can I go and tell her I love her first?" the boy asks.
"Yes." The man says again.
The boy races out of the bus, and to the train he is meeting the girl on. He sees her go inside. He looks around the train desperately trying to find her, but he can't. He wants to tell her he loves her. He wants to tell her he's soprry he couldn't do anything. He wants to tell her that the thing that happened to her doesn't change anything. He loves her.
The train leaves. He couldn't find her. The man must've got there first. Or maybe she escaped. Maybe someone else got her. The boy has no idea where the one he loves is.
That night, the boy goes to look for the girl with the girl's sister. They see police cars with sirens and try to follow them for the slim chance they found her. Again, not being able to find her, the two each go home.
The boy gets a call later that night from the sister, saying the girl's still not been found. The sister is hysterical, both are in tears. They each go to bed.
The boy remembers the where the girl was the night before, in the bed with him. He wishes she was there. He missed so much. And he was worried sick about her. He had no idea if she was ok, or even alive. If she was captured of had gotten away. If she went quietly or was suffering. There wasn't anything he could do. In his dispair, he imagined she was there next to him. Holding his hand, he turned to her to kiss her and tell her everything he wanted to and how glad he was that she was ok. But she wasn't there. She wouldn't ever be there again. He was lost without her. He always told her he'd never want anyone but her, that he couldn't live without her, that he loved her, she was everything to him and he'd always try his best for her. But he could never see her again.

The boy woke up to a start. He realised it was a dream, and the girl was safe. All he could was how relieved he was that she was ok, but the memory of how he felt in the dream remained. even when retelling the dream, the horrible feelings attached with it lingered and brought him to the brink of tears.
End


The reason I'm posting this is firstly to put it into words, and second so I know where to find it. It's imporant for me to remember so I know how much I'd suffer if the one I loved went away.