Depression

[big don mega]

depression, i've been depressed before but only a few weeks ago did i feel that i was sliping into depression. i've had my share of tragedies in my life and i usually close myself off so that i don't get fu**ed over, but i have opened up before. it was to the woman who gave birth to my child. i never really cared about her though, it was a one night stand turned 9 months, but i did start to have some feelings for her so i started opening up to her. it wasn't a suprise when she used what i told her to make me feel like shit, so i just got a little upset. there was another time that i opened up though, it was to her friend who actually intruduced us. i was always in love with her, but just recently, after me and my babys mother split up, i really let her know how i felt, then it just led to me compleatly opening up to her about all tragedies in my life. dumb move since i haven't heard from her since i opened up and now everyone that i'm near makes me think of her so it's hard not to get depressed. i met this one girl yesturday and chilled with her and my homie john earlier, me and her eventually ended up making out and was going to do more, but everytime that i went to, i just kept thinking of sara so i just couldn't do it. eventually she just told my homie that she wanted him and not me since i hadn't said but 4 or 5 things to her and all we were doing was making out. so him being the good friend that he is left with me, but i told him that he didn't have to and i wanted him to go back there and do whatever he wanted to do so that i didn't feel like shit for making him miss out on something. that is one reason i wanted him to go back, but the other was because i wanted to make that hour walk all by myself just to think of what a jackass i am

so if anyone actually reads this, can you tell me if that sounds like depression to you

[*~NeoAdamus~*]

yes it sounds a bit like it. A part of you has to forget about Sara, but another part of you never will. You have to meet a girl who can make you forget about her which sounds hard but actually isn't. Some girls tend to have that affect on a guy. The girl you were making out with on the other hand isn't the type of girl that could change that from my perspective. The girls who can change you for the better are usually the ones you never expect. Take a deep breath and two steps forward from your problems. You need something to really take your mind off of her, and i dont mean weed. Something a bit more positive

[big don mega]

Originally Posted by Adamus

yes it sounds a bit like it. A part of you has to forget about Sara, but another part of you never will. You have to meet a girl who can make you forget about her which sounds hard but actually isn't. Some girls tend to have that affect on a guy. The girl you were making out with on the other hand isn't the type of girl that could change that from my perspective. The girls who can change you for the better are usually the ones you never expect. Take a deep breath and two steps forward from your problems. You need something to really take your mind off of her, and i dont mean weed. Something a bit more positive

i quit weed a long time ago(but of course i have tended to not stay convicted to that quiting) but i did actually find out the reason that i haven't heard from sara in a while, but i still don't really know how she feels about me. so i might see her this weekend(low chances but chances of it none the less) and if not then i might talk to her by monday(not sure the chances of that actually happening, that all depends on if i want to ask my baby's mother for sara's new number or not) so i'm hoping that i get the chance to see or talk to her, but i really dont know if that's going to make me better or worst

[*~NeoAdamus~*]

Life is also about taking chances. You never get anywhere without that impulse, so go for it.....i cant realy tell you if it makes your depression worse or not. That is only for you to decide, so really think about what your planning to do

[big don mega]

well thank you for the advice and i'll be sure to keep that in mind as i "dive into the abyss of my heart"

[Destiny's End]

I think it's okay to be depressed from time to time. Nobody can be happy all day.
The point is to get over it eventually, not only for you yourself but also for others who care about you.
You really don't want them to worry about you.

Sometimes, there are some who care too much and turn an already serious problem into an even more serious problem. There are people who have Depression that need help, but won't admit it and refuse it. I have that kind of Depression, but I hide it well enough not to get people involved.

Question: would a drug addiction be linked to Depression? I have a friend who is, well was, a daily pill-popper. She stopped, but could that be linked to Depression?

[big don mega]

well it is possible that she was popping the pills to cope with depression, but if she didn't seem depressed before but she does now, then she could have been in withdrawal which could lead to depression. i hope i answered your question and didn't misinterpurate it

[*~NeoAdamus~*]

well holding in depression only makes it worse. When you talk about your problems it actually relieves some of it that you locked away within you. As far as popping pills, some medications can change a chemical balance within your body so it can make you feel depressed sometimes for no real reason. The reaction of your body is just acting upon something nonexistant, but if you've felt great depression before popping some pills that alter that chemical balance, it does get much worse

[Destiny's End]

As far as popping pills, some medications can change a chemical balance within your body so it can make you feel depressed sometimes for no real reason. The reaction of your body is just acting upon something nonexistant, but if you've felt great depression before popping some pills that alter that chemical balance, it does get much worse

Well she stopped thank God. I was really concerned.

well holding in depression only makes it worse. When you talk about your problems it actually relieves some of it that you locked away within you.

Talking to people only makes it worse. People try to put nonsense in your head. I've been forced to two shrinks that feed me this garbage about my feelings. I hold in my feelings very well. I don't ever talk about my more serious stuff to anybody. I won't release my emotions in a self-destructive way like people have. Besides, that kind of stuff doesn't work anyway. It makes feel even worse that when you started

[monkeybutt]

Sometimes I feel much worse talking to people, because a lot of times its hard for them to understand. You can't seek solace in others COMPLETELY. You have to become comfortable with yourself, and then fall back on others for support.

[big don mega]

holding in your feelings isn't healthy, but there are cercamstances where it is better to keep them in. i'm not good at letting out any kind of feelings, but i do have a selective group of people where i'll let out my possitive feelings and anger, but there are only 4-5 people that i'll let know when i'm upset, sad, depressed, and ect.. the reason i'm like that is because them 4-5 people are the only people that won't make a big deal about it, but they won't just lay it to rest and act like it never happened. there are very few people in this world who can really help with them feelings, so i'm glad that i met the 5 that could even if one did end up doing what i hoped they wouldn't(still not sure if there ignoring me or if it's this one thing that happened to them that could be the reason they just haven't been able to talk to me)

[*~NeoAdamus~*]

Originally Posted by monkeybutt

Sometimes I feel much worse talking to people, because a lot of times its hard for them to understand. You can't seek solace in others COMPLETELY. You have to become comfortable with yourself, and then fall back on others for support.

I think it depends who you're talking to. For instance, when talking with someone with a similar case somehow it relieves pain through conversations. You are right though, at some point you have to be comfortable or atleast find some sort of comfort zone.

For me my comfort zone is drinking green tea out in a nice day with a bit of wind, especially in spring. It has this feel of absolute piece where i can relieve my mind and forget all that's bad.

[Snow Candy]

I'll say it's the worst feeling you'll ever get. It can also cause alot of things especially suicide and of course as well as other stuff. Sometimes some even die of it (and I'm talking about if they never bothered to commit suicide, I'm talking about feeling sad all the time and not using anything to help them). Anybody want to correct me on that or have a say, cuz I'm not too sure about that part. I mean I had depressions loads of time and I've managed to keep it bottled up for a long time, then of course er....exploded. Not to mention it's like the worst feeling ever. I keep getting depressed at times over stupid things and of course sometimes things that people wouldn't understand. It's kind of like falling in the hollow hole of darkness, y'know? Gosh, sometimes I wish I wasn't depressed and that I was more of a happy person. Expressing my views on depression there.

[Anonymous]

I was depressed (like, clinically and whatnot) about three years ago.
I cut off all social contact, pretty much became a mute in school (spoke minimally at home to avoid suspicion), sat at home everyday, pretty much laid awake almost every night wondering what my life would be like, and I has horrible, recurring thoughts about my death (and possible suicide)...
The worst part was that my life was actually okay. I had friends and a loving family and all that other nice stuff, but I still felt like there was no hope in the world.
In the end I exploded. My parents were concerned, and I got some help.

It was awful.
Anti-depressants were helpful getting me out of that big slump, but I still slip in and out of it sometimes =(

So that's my story.
My thoughts on depression?
It's a horrible condition (NOT state of mind. It's effects are physical too). I'm sick of people saying "it's all in your head," because it's really not.

(Lastly, I agree completely with Monkeybutt's views.)