i have lost myself.

[Riel]

I have lost myself.

All around me, I see black,

And I see red.

But I still can't find myself.

I reach through my memories,

And I find happiness.

But I also find sadness.

I find whispered 'I love you' s,

And hushed 'I love you too's.

But I see the undertone of melancholy.

Through my darkness, I can feel,

Something cold.

But when I stop reaching, I find something warm.

When I give up,

I find the strength.

But this doesn't make any sense!

If I have to give up,

Then why did I try so hard!

But I think that I know the answer.

When I tried so hard, tried to impress,

All I did was fail.

But I didn't just fail, or not achieve a goal.

No, instead,

I lost myself.

And, in losing myself,

I lost you.
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I suck at poetry, am in an odd spot right now, and just needed to write something.

Rip it up.

[Audo]

So, you told me to check this out hours ago, and "rip it apart".
And while I would love to do so, I'm not very good at assessing poetry.

...sorry.