A New Journey. A New Life.

[Traskix]

A New Journey. A New Life.

Prologue:

I walk the streets. The souls of my shoes touching the rough ground.
I wonder where am I supposed to be, when there is no where to go. So I walk alone with no plans for the future. Why should there be a future? When I have no one beside me.

I near the roaring river, staring at me. Should I just end it all. I feel like I should but I don’t want to quit. But how could I live? When no one is here to support me. I have no one. They’re either dead or far away. How could I find them, when I can’t even find myself.

The cold water splashes. It sends cold chills threw out my body. The deeper I go, the closer I’ll be. But is it my time to go. Am I supposed to end my life’s chapter like this? Ending it all is the easy way out. I should try if I want a better life. A journey will find it’s way to me. I might not know it, but its closer than I thought.

[~B-ST~]

ooh, shall I say...mysterious? `>'o'<`

[Traskix]

The sun shone threw my ripped drapes. The sun wanted me to get up, but all I wanted to do was sleep. I wish I could sleep all day. I wouldn’t worry as much.

I been living alone, by myself for two years now. My family left. It wasn’t really my family, just my father. And if you don’t follow his rules there will be consequences.

As I opened my eyes I looked across the room. My sister and I shared a room. I miss her and my mother so much.
I got up and went straight to the closet. I wore the same clothes every week. I didn’t really care, but a new blouse or a pair of shoes would be nice.

I went to school still. Everyone knew my situation, but no one really seemed to care. I walked threw the empty house and looked out the window. By my house was a river. I always looked outside to see the river. The sun made it shine and glitter.

As I walked into the restroom I looked in the mirror. My face looked sad. Under my eyes was black. I looked empty and I needed to be filled with something.
I got ready and left the house. I always go straight to my friends house. Her name was Patricia. Her and I were trouble makers when we were younger. That was another reason why my father decided to leave me behind.

“Hey Jenny!” yelled Patricia’s younger brother, Raul.
“Hey! How are you doing this morning” I said.
“It’s okay, look what I got you” Raul handed me a flower.
“Aw, it’s beautiful. Thank you”

Raul smiled. He was only in first grade.

“You know Jenny you should live with us. So you can have a family” Raul said.
“That’s nice Raul but I have a family. I just need to find them”
“Where are they?”
“I don’t know. I will find them though”
“What if you can’t?”
“I will, as long as I don’t give up hope”

“Raul!! Leave Jenny alone” Patricia yelled.
“Aw I wasn’t doing anything” Raul shouted back.
Patricia ran towards me. “Walk ahead of us. Okay!”
Raul gave a look. He grabbed his bag and books and skipped ahead of us.

“Sorry, he can be a real bug” Patricia said.
“It’s okay, I really don’t mind”
“How do you do it Jenny?”
“Do what?” I said with confusion.
“How can you be happy all the time”
“Patricia just because I look happy doesn’t mean I’m not”

Patricia simply gave a sorry look and changed the subject.
On the outside I seemed like a happy person. But it takes someone special to look deep inside my eyes and know my sad story.

“So what are you going to do after we get out of school?” asked Patricia.
“I don’t know. I guess i'll try to find my mother and sister”
“Why do you still want to find them? They left you”
“it wasn’t them. It was my father who made the choice. He is worse than the El Diablo”
“That’s for sure. Well it’s our last year, we got to make it count”
“Yeah, that’s what I‘m planning to do”
　
　
I walked back to my house after school was over. I usually stay with Patricia till sunset. Today I just wanted to be alone. Alone with my thoughts might not be the greatest idea. I went to the back of my house. The river was at a slow pace. It made everything calm. Myself calm. I sat at the bank of the river. I started to think. The day that they left.



It was late at night and I was coming back from Patricia’s house. As I approached the door, it opened.

“There you are! Where have you been” yelled my father
“I was with my friends”
“This late!?” he screamed.
“I’m older. I don’t need permission”

My father was fuming. He ran his hand threw the air. It hit my face with a loud slap.

“You are only a child. Fifteen years! You need to become responsible. You’re out late and with no jobs here! You care only of yourself” My father yelled

Tears streamed down my face.

“but since you’re older and don’t need permission. You just bring shame to this family. We are leaving!”
“Leaving!? Without me!?”
“Yes! I made this decision and I’m sticking with it. If you come all you‘ll do is bring trouble”
“But, mother you can’t let him do that!”

My mom just stood, crying. She was covering a bruise on her face. My sister stood beside her crying as well.

“Come one we’re leaving” My father said.

He walked with bags in his hands. He opened the old car’s door. It was packed tight with everyone’s belongings. Except mine.

“Hurry up!” my father screamed.

My mother and sister hurried out the door. All my mother said to me was that they were going to catch a train. But I do not know the city. She gave me a necklace. A cross to keep me safe. At that point I was losing mind. I never wore the necklace because to me there was no purpose.

[Bellaisima358]

This is so sad traskix...... very deep. :(

[Traskix]

it is deep, kinda reflexs my life in a way

[Bellaisima358]

Cool. I really liked it.......

[Traskix]

thanks :)

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[khfreak17]

*imitates a hippie* that's deep man. really deep. *goes back to normal* i really like it. u shud do more.

[Traskix]

i will but im too distracted to write right now lol

[Traskix]

sorry for the shortness, but i write short posts a lot.



It was the weekend now. Even worse a week off school. What can be worse than that? Patricia and her family are leaving town. So I’ll be alone for a total of nine days.

In the morning I woke up feeling a little sick. I needed to get out, get some sun into my cold body. As I walked into the small living room, I noticed some old letters. My mother sent me letters at least once a month. Of course they never had her address on it. My father probably forced her not to write it. She would also sneak some money in her letters. It helped a lot.

Today though I had no money. I spent the last of it for food. I walked out of the house and sat down on the porch. Where I lived there was no neighbors around. It was surrounded by jungle. It wasn’t far from town, or people. Just isolated from everyone.

It was spring and the creatures that lived near the jungle were waking up. It was going to be a long week. A week of nothing to do, nothing to live for.

[khfreak17]

omg. i cant wait 4 de next one. i bet its gonna be awesome

[Traskix]

It was late Sunday. It’s been only two days, and I was losing my mind. I decided to take a walk before I lost my mind.

I walked into the small town. I loved to watch the people in town. It made me feel something. Something that could fill my empty heart.

I sat silent, just looking at the people pass by. Most would smile at me as they walked by. Others just ignored me or looked straight to the ground. I was actually enjoying myself.
Across the street I noticed someone kept looking at me. I never seen that person before. He stood outside a shop that sold items that were collected around the world.

He was staring at me. I felt uncomfortable. He must have been a traveler. His hair was brown but in the sun it shone golden. I tried not to look at him, but it was hard. He must of have noticed my embarrassment. He smiled and my stomach was filled with butterflies.

The one time in my life where I actually felt something, was going to crash. From the corner of my eye I could see a group of boys walking my way. I knew them, they went to my school. They weren’t nice, just a bunch of jerks. The leader of the group was named Andre. He tortured me mentally for years. Saying such awful things to me, that it hurt enough for it to effect my way of life.

My happiness melted away. I turned my head and looked down. Hoping that the group wouldn’t notice me.

“Hey look it’s Jenny!” Andre shouted as he saw me.

I just ignored him.

“What are you doing out here, waiting for your family to come back”

Andre and his friends surrounded me. I felt like I was sinking into darkness.

“Can you just leave me alone!” I shouted
“Aw, why? I thought you would like some company”
“I rather be alone then be stuck with you”

I stood up, trying to escape.

“Where are you going. That empty place you call home!”

My eyes started to fill with tears, but I held them back. I started to go but Andre’s friends blocked my way.

“You'll always be alone! You’ll never have a family! You’ll die alone!”

I covered my face. I didn’t want them to see my defeat. They all laughed at me.

“Hey! Leave her alone” someone shouted.
It was the boy who was across the street. As Andre was distracted I ran off.

“Aww, look what you did! She ran away” one of Andre’s friend said.
“Good, you shouldn’t be treating a person like that”
“She’s barley a person. She has no heart”

As I ran away I heard a smack. I knew I caused a fight.

When I finally got home I ran straight to the backyard. I was broken up and was crying uncontrollably.

The sun was setting down. I stared at the river. I could feel my body getting cold. My mind went blank and I got up.
I walked towards the river. It was rushing at a fast pace. Enough for it to take me somewhere else. I walked into the water. It was cold and it felt like a thousand knives piercing threw my body. As I was going in deeper I could hear a voice. I didn’t know if I was going crazy or if it was real.

The voice yelled for me to stop. I turned to see where it came from. But it was too late. I got swept away and pulled under water.

[Traskix]

It was late Sunday. It’s been only two days, and I was losing my mind. I decided to take a walk before I lost my mind.

I walked into the small town. I loved to watch the people in town. It made me feel something. Something that could fill my empty heart.

I sat silent, just looking at the people pass by. Most would smile at me as they walked by. Others just ignored me or looked straight to the ground. I was actually enjoying myself.
Across the street I noticed someone kept looking at me. I never seen that person before. He stood outside a shop that sold items that were collected around the world.

He was staring at me. I felt uncomfortable. He must have been a traveler. His hair was brown but in the sun it shone golden. I tried not to look at him, but it was hard. He must of have noticed my embarrassment. He smiled and my stomach was filled with butterflies.

The one time in my life where I actually felt something, was going to crash. From the corner of my eye I could see a group of boys walking my way. I knew them, they went to my school. They weren’t nice, just a bunch of jerks. The leader of the group was named Andre. He tortured me mentally for years. Saying such awful things to me, that it hurt enough for it to effect my way of life.

My happiness melted away. I turned my head and looked down. Hoping that the group wouldn’t notice me.

“Hey look it’s Jenny!” Andre shouted as he saw me.

I just ignored him.

“What are you doing out here, waiting for your family to come back”

Andre and his friends surrounded me. I felt like I was sinking into darkness.

“Can you just leave me alone!” I shouted
“Aw, why? I thought you would like some company”
“I rather be alone then be stuck with you”

I stood up, trying to escape.

“Where are you going. That empty place you call home!”

My eyes started to fill with tears, but I held them back. I started to go but Andre’s friends blocked my way.

“You'll always be alone! You’ll never have a family! You’ll die alone!”

I covered my face. I didn’t want them to see my defeat. They all laughed at me.

“Hey! Leave her alone” someone shouted.
It was the boy who was across the street. As Andre was distracted I ran off.

“Aww, look what you did! She ran away” one of Andre’s friend said.
“Good, you shouldn’t be treating a person like that”
“She’s barley a person. She has no heart”

As I ran away I heard a smack. I knew I caused a fight.

When I finally got home I ran straight to the backyard. I was broken up and was crying uncontrollably.

The sun was setting down. I stared at the river. I could feel my body getting cold. My mind went blank and I got up.
I walked towards the river. It was rushing at a fast pace. Enough for it to take me somewhere else. I walked into the water. It was cold and it felt like a thousand knives piercing threw my body. As I was going in deeper I could hear a voice. I didn’t know if I was going crazy or if it was real.

The voice yelled for me to stop. I turned to see where it came from. But it was too late. I got swept away and pulled under water.

[Bellaisima358]

Wow......intense!! I love it!

[Traskix]

yay! but it double posted itself....on its own *scary music* lol